I heart my ESL

Thank God I am fluent enough to understand everything Morrissey says. It really feels like the world is a better place when you can identify with sorrow and joy in several languages...
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Happy New Fear

When facing unequivocal danger, animals act instinctively. Their most commom natural responses are the following behaviors: avoidance, defensive threat, defensive attack, risk assessment or freezing. Those are the innate responses, meaning the animals do not have to learn or think about them. Those reactions were given by Mother Nature and selected throughout the evolution of species as a - lets put it this way - efficient and smart way of dealing with danger evolutionarywise.

I find pretty easy to understand good uses for such behaviors, but I have some doubts about freezing. Ok, it may work in some situations, for example, if a rodent is trying to deceive an evil eagle flying up high. Hey! I am not moving, so the eagle thinks I am a rock, or a statue, whatever. Nevertheless, there are cases where just standing still makes no sense at all. When a mouse is facing a cat, for instance. Unless the mouse defies its predator for a staring contest or something like that, it is just useless, right?

Well, I do not want to go to far with this. I don't mean to bore people to death here.

I just wanted to introduce a very realistic observation about myself, as a representative of the animal world: I am having a very stupid instinctive response to my challenges and duties that are being brought by this brand new year. I am just not able to do anything but freezing. And I know for sure this will not do me any good...

I am looking 2009 in its eyes and I am f#cking paralyzed!
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Bad dream

Last night I had a bunch of scrambled dreams, it was very disturbing. I was in the dark and could not find the ligh switch, stumbling on stuff thrown around on the floor. I felt the imminence of evil, the possibility of danger, a very bad fear, I don't know. Then I got to open a window, but it it was all dark outside also, so it didn't help me much. I rested my elbows on the window frame and decided to smoke a cigarette, so I could think about what I was going to do. But my restlessness started again, because I could not find my lighter in the darkness.
Last night I had a lightmare.

Mirror, mirror on the wall!

- oh boy! I wish I could be a bird today.

- how cute! like a humming bird to fly and kiss the flowers?

- no. like an ostrich to hide my head under the ground.

I'm a weirdo

I never smoke without chewing gum.
Writing with HB graphite pencil makes me flinch.
I know every person's smell.
I pour cold water in the coffe.
I do not watch movies about snow.
I mix English phrases when speaking Portuguese.
I use way more sweetener than it is reazonable.
My hands are always cold and I hate when they get warm.
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